Moose Musings

11:52pm: So my mother came over this afternoon to take a look at my wardrobes since she was away when I moved in and never got the chance to tell me where I should I put what :OP

You may well say, what business is it of my mother's how I put stuff, but firstly she and Dad are 10% owners of the place and secondly...her cleaning unearthed two things I thought I'd lost!

One was a library book! Which is fabulous because I was going to have to pay for that, which would have sucked. Plus I never even got a chance to read it...but it turns out it was hiding in one of the baskets in my storage shelf thing.

The second thing was my Pusheen drink bottle! Which was in the pantry...which I swore I'd checked, but while Mum was rearranging things in there it showed up! :OD I'm so happy! They don't sell that particular one anymore (it has Pusheen eating various things on it) and I couldn't even find it on E-bay.

So excellent news there!

I'm glad the day turned out well because I had a weird morning when my guts decided to be asshat and then I had a bit of panic attack while driving home from my parents house (I stay over Thursday nights so Mum and I can watch at TV show called Googlebox). In the end it took me like an hour to do a drive that should take ten minutes. Which just goes to show how bloody dumbass panic attacks are, because I was in the car longer. What was the point of that. Grumble grumble.

Anywho, I better wrap this up as it's almost midnight and I have to head to bed...I'm an old lady now after all! ;O)

Goodnight all!

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11:35pm: Have been derailed, because of a headache I wrote precisely nothing on my fanfic! And to add to that I didn't even go ice skating this afternoon! I was driving there but my hands felt so weird and sweaty that I got put off. :O( Plus I wanted to go to Warringah Mall anyway, so I figured, eh I'd head that way instead.

I went there to look for bras (I need new ones probably) but alas, I couldn't find anything suitable! Or rather the one I really liked didn't come in my size, boo-urns.

On the upside I did get the Pusheen drink bottle, yay! Although it's different from the one that was on the Jay Jays website, dunno what the deal is with that. Still it's super cute!

I also bought mince for lasagna...at least that was the plan, but when I actually went to open the packet I discovered to my disappointment I'd picked up the wrong thing, instead of pork and beef mince it was just pork! The recipe doesn't work with just one or the other (although if I had to choose I'd take beef), so that was a bust.

Instead I cooked nuggets and chips however, my guts decided to be a jerkass and feel all gross and I starting having a headache to boot! I thought maybe this was because I'd forgotten to take my anti-depressant, so I took it when I got home, but it didn't work....and the ibpurofen has only just started to kick in. Boooo.

So in the end I ate the nuggets and a carrot, but I left the chips in too long and they were a bust.

So yeah, it sucks.

And now I'm gonna wrap this up, because I can feel the headache threatening to return and I should take that as my cue to go to sleep.

Thank you and goodnight.

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10:29pm: That would make a good name for a band, but that's not why I'm using that subject title. I'm using it because I cried today and for me the saying "Nothing like a good cry" is totally untrue. I swear I'm allergic to my own tears or something because after crying my eyes get swollen and get terribly dry and I end up with a nasty headache.

The eyes have settled down a bit, but the headache has continued, despite me having taken some Nurofen. Seriously, what the fuck? I don't need this.

You may well wonder why was I crying? Well, it's rather perverse, in typical Moose-style now that something I didn't really want to do isn't happening I feel all regretful about it, like I've made the wrong decision. In this case, it's the whole moving in with the little bro thing, him bringing back all my stuff yesterday was confirmation that the whole thing was off the table and now I'm worried about loneliness.

Because I did mean it when I told my parents some times I get lonely living by myself and I don't know what to do about that. Except I kind of like they idea of a family member being around, I mean I feel like I could probably tell the little bro if I was feeling anxious, where as if I got a random flatmate some day (not that I could in the place I'm hoping to move into next year) that wouldn't be possible.

On the other hand, I'm sure having to drive five times as long to work would get on my nerves too and maybe the little bro and I would end up getting on each other's nerves and all that. Also this feeling of loneliness is usually pretty fleeting like two or maybe three days at most? There was one point last year where it lasted like a week, but that was pretty much it. Upending my whole life is probably a bit of an over-reaction to that?

Aaaah, I dunno, maybe I'm just tired, I don't think I've caught up on my sleep properly at all this week and the tear-induced headache has done me no favours I'm sure.

I'm gonna wrap this up and turn in.

Goodnight all!

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11:40pm: So, I need to get to bed so I better make this quick.

Anyway, the point to my subject title is...my poor IBS decided to act up today, but it was my own fault for not having a proper breakfast...or lunch for that matter. I was just so excited for the last episode of the figure skating anime that I neglected to do it and by the time I thought about it, it was kind of too late.

Suffice to say things came to a head while I was volunteering at the library, ugh, it really sucked, I almost had a full-on panic attack and as it was I had trouble properly concentrating on the work I was given. I think I did all right though, except I left early and thus didn't get my usual two hours in.

But I did at least fell OK enough to get to the War Vets home to meet my parents at the Chapel there. They wanted to talk to the people there about playing music for the 4pm Christmas vigil. Apparently there wasn't going to be any actual music, just recordings so the people there were happy to have Mum and Dad there. So that's what will be happening Saturday afternoon, although I'm not sure how I'm going to play Canasta with M if I'm doing that.

Finally, I was watching the Russian Figure Skating Nationals online, but the internet suddenly decided to be a butt and I can't seem to load any streams. Booo. At least I saw the men's event! The ladies are on tomorrow so hopefully the net will be going again so I can see it.

But now I must go! I had a dream last night I was late for work with Mrs S and I don't want that to happen for real!

So I say goodnight!

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10:59pm: He's 34 years old, which was (is) Marge's ages at the beginning of The Simpsons! Which makes me feel quite old...

Which might explan why I felt so crap today, which thoroughly sucked because it started out so well with the sub of the figure skating anime and I was feeling generally good when my digestive system decided to act like a total bitch and panicking.

Which totally sucked especially with Mum being out of the country. Sigh me, pull it together!

I did at least get to the Library for my volunteering, and picked up the final season of MacGyver DVD that I had on hold and the latest Patricia Cornwell book which hopefully won't suck.

I then went to my parents' place to drop off a container and once again hunt for the anxiety book. And I'm immensely relieved to report I found it! Thank God.

Dad came home after 4pm, turns out he still does bus duty and I did plan to go home, but with the abdominal pain I've ended up staying over.

So, I better head off now, with any luck my abdomen will be better tomorrow.

Goodnight all!

11:05pm: I opened this tab like an hour and a half ago and I'm only just now starting to type in it. Pft, fail.

Anyway, I'm sorry to say my mental state is still kinda...off...I'm starting to wonder if not having a proper breakfast before taking my anti-depressant is behind it. I mean obviously I have to take it every day, but I do recall reading about the importance of taking it after eating. But maybe I need a bit more than a mandarin and a couple of spoons of yogurt.

Anyway, I felt upset this morning and like I've been saying since Wednesday I can't put a finger on why. I feel that something's missing, but what? I did IM crossover_chick and talk for a bit (thanks, Vic) which made me think maybe it's writing. Like I signed up to Camp NaNo this month with the intention of getting back in the game only to find...I don't know what to write? Like...I've got no inspiration! At all?! I usually make up little stories in my head all the time, even if I never write any of it down and they seem to have gone AWOL too. It's disturbing.

Although having written that out I can see why something seems to be missing...because it is! My creative mojo! Where did it go? Why did it go? And why have I only just noticed this turn of events? Because thinking about it, I'm sure the little narrator in my head has been quiet for a while now. But I just noticed it this Wednesday? Why then? I've been quite happy these past few months - the odd panic attack excepted - scratches head.

The only thing I can think of is that I've been slacking off on my reading since been told about needing to move from the Granny Flat - and even though that's all cleared up now - I haven't got back into it and now my brain is all quiet, with more time to think about bad stuff.

The book I'm currently halfway through is about Roger Federer and one fan's journey watching him play and whatnot. Which perhaps is a bit of a bad choice because sadly even switching channels last night and going to bed didn't work. The Fed-Ex fought back valiantly only to go down in five sets to Freddo. Sigh.

I do have a number of other books to read though so I could look at those! I really should get with the program.

I might also be a bit distressed because last weekend when I went to my grandparents' place I discovered I hadn't put the top on my wart removal stuff properly and some of it leaked on my purple shirt - the one I sewed by hand - and left a stain, which hasn't come off despite washing! Damn, what if it won't come out? I worked so hard on that shirt...

Shakes head.

Anyway, I turned the heater off in preparation for going to bed and now it's getting chilly in here so I'm gonna wrap this up now. Besides I skipped my Russian last night and I really ought to do it now.

Goodnight all!

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11:39pm: So I realised today that the end of May is coming and I have no idea when Mrs S is actually returning! I think it's 31st May but I'm not 100% and thus have no idea when I'm supposed to resume my morning work.

So I've sent Mrs S an email to ask, although I'm not sure she'll get, I do remember her mentioning that she'd call when she needed me to come back, so I assume that's still the case.

Anyway! Once again I've let this entry super late, why do I keep doing this? Well mostly because I get distracted doing other stuff, plus it's not like I have that much to say, in fact I didn't even go out today! Which in retrospect was a bad idea. I also forgot to take my anti-anxiety medication until the evening, which I'm quite sure had something to do with the almost-anxiety attack. Bloody rude, I tell you.

In other news, House Hunters International is on and the accent from this girl from the US is all over the place! I thought only Aussie's had that issue when they stayed for extended periods in other countries. Good to know we're not alone I suppose, LOL.

What else? Well not much, I remembered my Russian, but I forgot my Simpsons Tapped Out so I guess I'll be missing out on visiting my friends on that.

But oh! I just remembered something! I've made a start on my Pusheen Plush, she looks super cute all ready! I've put the stripes on the top of her head, her eyes and mouth, but I still have to put the stripes on her back and figure out how to make the legs before I stuff her. And decided if I'm going to get pipe cleaners for her whiskers or just use fabric.

Anyway, with only ten minutes left to midnight I better haul ass, tomorrow is Mum visiting day so I have to make sure the place looks nice!

Oh! And great news, the little bro can come on the cruise! Yay! I hope he enjoys it...it'd be a shame otherwise.

Goodnight all!

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10:40pm: Firstly the good times, the ice skating show was totally awesome! They had people playing with fire! Back flip and jumping competition and all around cool skating. :O) I really enjoyed it.

The bad times though was a panic attack that hit me this morning for no good reason. Unfortunately, scratching was involved, my poor upper chest area. :O(

Despite that I managed to do my last gym session and swimming, although that lead to another bad thing I seem to have left my fitness tracker at the pool! Shit, I hope I haven't lost it for good, that would suck.

But yeah, the after effects of my panic attack lasted for most of the day and almost led me to skip the skating! But I soldiered on.

And now I'm here at my friend's place. We had a fun chat while watching Gogglebox and other shows. We really must hang out more often!

Right I better be off now, my friend gets up early for work so, like yesterday I want to keep up with the zzzzs.

Goodnight all!

10:26pm: On this show about Tiny Houses I'm watching. It's got the ability to expand at the touch of a button! Which is really pretty neat, although I guess there'd always be an issue about what would you do if the button broke!

Although I do wonder, a lot of the people who buy these tiny houses end up setting up in a friend or family member's yard, can you do that? Don't you need a permit for that sort of thing? After all, you can't just set up a caravan any place you feel like. Especially if you consider the toilet situation!

Now there's a show called Extreme Homes on, and the current house it is totally weird, it's got cinderblock and wire walls so it's totally open to everything o.O and the name of it doesn't inspire much confidence - The Black Rose of Death, LOL, yeah not sure he gets that many people staying over. :OP

They've moved onto a place in Japan now, which reminds me of my big bro, I wonder how he and his wife are getting along with the new baby! I assume they've come home from the hospital now - they don't keep you in there very long these days...my father was released a week after having heart surgery! I also need to look into making a kangaroo plushy! I've got a month to make it.

Not much else to report, except alas I didn't set my alarm for the right time and missed out on going skating today...especially since I'm still nervous of the roads that make it easy to get there. They're narrow and there's not a lot of turn offs or anything, makes me feel claustrophobic, which is sort of dumb, but is the truth nonetheless. I'm considering catching a bus or something...which has the upside of allowing me to have reading time, but the downside of giving into the anxiety re driving.

I'm hoping to go tomorrow since I don't have work anymore, plus I need to go that way because I went to Innovations today to get Mrs S's thing, but it turned out the place wasn't open! Do'h! The website was not very clear about that, I should mention that when I go in.

I did however go to the Mall to buy the Corrs's new CD! Which was finally released here just the other day! Which is very good news, because it looked like I was going to have order it from overseas. I also got a new hand towel for the bathroom and a fabric cube to put under the table I'm going to put the dishwasher on. Although the box is a bit narrow, however the box I'm using for my paper recycling fits quite nicely, so I've swapped them around. Not sure what I'm going to do with the new cube, but it looks pretty so...

Hmm, I need to do the Memes, although I'm not sure where I'm up to now! I guess I'll just do today's and then investigate what I've missed.

Sunday Stealing

27/2/16

How Are Ya Today Meme

1. Okay, here we go. How are ya today? I'm well! Although I'm rather confused by this house that can turn to face the sun...does one get dizzy in it or what?

2. Have you ever been so happy you felt invincible? Hmmm...I don't think so, although I have had some very happy moments when I've felt like life is all on track!

3. Would you ever refer to something as ‘bitter sweet’? Sure, why not.

4. Is there a person in this world you don’t think you could ever figure out? Most politicians, what the fuck is up with most of them?

5. When was the last time you were freaked out? This morning trying to drive. Hmpf!

6. Do you learn from ‘every’ mistake you make? Hell no, which is sometimes a big problem.

7. Do you sometimes think that you’re too nice? Ummm...not really...I suppose I canbe talked into doing a favour for someone way too easily, but most people I know are reasonable thankfully!

8.Is there something you’re dying to tell someone? Hmmm, not that I can think of?

9. Do you think you have a unique name? Well, I haven't really met that many Monicas, in fact the whole time I was in school I'd only ever heard of one! Before that there was Monica Lewinsky, which was no fun. Interestingly enough including me, Mrs S knows three Monicas, LOL. Seems its a more popular name in South America.

10. Do you usually try to find the good in people? Indeed! Except for Donald Trump...in all seriousness, I'm having trouble thinking of one good thing about him. I suppose he loves his family, but apart from that.

11. Do you look back on embarrassing moments and laugh about them? Hmmm...maybe? Nothing comes immediately to mind - oh wait, maybe the time at the swimming carnival when I swam under the lane ropes and was so slow I held up the whole school carnival for five minutes!

12. Have you ever laughed just to save yourself from humiliation? I'm quite sure I have.

13. What are you doing in 2 hours? Sleeping!

14.What is the last thing you ate? Some cheese, what else is new. :OP

15 Do you love your job? I do! Mrs S is cool and my other jobs are at the library! Hugs all the books!

16. When is the last time you showered? This morning

17. Who is the last person you texted? The Australia's Got Talent voting thing.

18. When is the last time you were in a hospital? As a visitor? Last year. As a patient when I was a very small baby.

19. The last time you went out to eat, what did you order?
 Pizza!

20. Do you tend to have a lot of those moments where you forget something that you wanted to say?
 Yes, yes I do.

21. How long have you known the last person you text messaged? Well, I won't count the Australia's Got Talent hotline. The person before...My mother? All my life :OP

22. Will this week be a good one? I'm sure it will!

23. Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? I got to move into my new place, it was a lot of hard work, but I'm loving it and the dishwasher I bought to go along with it! :OD

24. Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning? In the morning, having showers at night feels weird to me.

25. Have you been to New York City? Alas no...I want to though!

Unconscious Mutterings

I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Deep dive :: Dangerous

2. Puppies :: And kittens

3. Bow :: and arrow

4. Clown :: Send in the

5. Fresh! :: Prince of Bel-air!

6. Munch :: Lunch

7. Jack :: and the Beanstalk

8. Boiled :: Eggs

9. Elected :: Prime-minster - which we don't actually do here...we elect the party.

10. Book club :: Box.

Anyway! I better head off, I want to get into better sleeping habits and I'm still a bit late, oops.

For now, goodnight!

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11:21pm: First, my left knee is hurting and my abdominal area is continuing to be an ass, to the extent that I almost had a panic attack today while working at the library! So not cool.

Also not cool, when I spoke to my mother this morning before heading into the library she told me that she had just been speaking with C, the landlady and apparently they don't want me living here in the Granny Flat and they certainly don't want to suggest to perspective purchasers that I could be a tenant. Hmpf. I suppose she could have changed her mind after talking to her husband, N, but I tell you this happens quite a bit. She'll say one thing to me and then the completely opposite to my mother and vice versa. WTF? It's very confusing.

So the search for a new place to live is back on! I got rather excited this evening when I thought that I might be able to afford a home loan that would get me into an old unrenovated apartment. But of course I managed to stuff up my figures and it turns out I could only get a loan big enough to buy something way out of Sydney. :OP Not to mention the apartment that spawned this has all ready found a buyer. Boo.

Anyway, I was over at my parents house for dinner when all this went down, it was roast chicken from Woolies and very yummy it was too! :OD There'd been some drama before I came over, Dad was on a step ladder polishing the car when he accidentally fell off it! Fortunately there's nothing broken, but his leg is really saw now, I hope he feels better soon!

I also hope I feel better soon, as I mentioned my guts continue to be an ass and I have work to do tomorrow! It was uncomfortable enough today that I had to give up on the idea of going skating after finishing work at Belrose Library. I was quite disappointed.

Although as proof that everyone makes mistakes, when I got to Belrose Library this morning my co-worker had forgotten the keys to get in! :Oo We had to call one of the library managers, but it took her about 20 minutes to arrive, but we managed to open on time at least.

Right, I should be off to bed now, like I said more work tomorrow and alas the game between the two Aussies at the Aussie Open started late so I won't be able to stay up and watch it. Suffice to say I'm going for John Millman, you go man!

Goodnight all!

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