FREAK OUT!

5:35pm: Damn, I hate it when I get inexplicibly nervous over something and get semi-anxiety attacks...I feel like I'm gonna go running around screaming but then it calms down and I figure it's all over and then it comes back! As a result I'm not the least bit hungry and I've just cooked up a whole bunch of sausages! The good ones too, I'm sure they'll be really tasty too, but alas...

I think I ate too much cheese...God I hate myself when I do that! Maybe I'll just take some Buscopan my stomach is flipping out.

In other news the Big Brother should almost be in Japan now! Sniff we said goodbye to him today, Dad and I went to the airport to see him off, but it looks like he'd have someone to talk to on the plane (which is my biggest worry about going on a plane by myself...not knowing anyone!) and he even said he was a bit nervous! Poor Mike, I'm sure he'll be fine seeing as he's not an anxiety ridden sufferer like myself, also his fiance is over there and her family so if something happens, they'll look after him. (My other fear about going overseas or a long distance by myself.)

In other news I've got to clean up the place because tomorrow my mother is coming over to attend a meeting of the Board here and she'll have a fit if she sees the place as is, I've down my washing, but not the washing up. Aaah, I should really get me one of those benchtop dishwashers. Those things are cool!

Hmmm...I've downloaded this program that will allow me to get my contacts and photos off my old phone (since it won't work with the my bro's one) but I can't get the pitcures to download. How annoying! I wanted to save the pictures of the Ferraris! Although, I can't figure out how to set my own wallpaper on my bro's phone anyway...

I didn't update too much about yesterday, it didn't start off very well when I went to the Three Store to have my account put on my bro's phone, it was all going well, I remembered to bring everything along, but then when they went to do the Credit Check they said I was denied! But they couldn't say why! I was horrified, and actually ended up crying, how embarrassing! But Mike suggested later on it might be because I don't have a full time job, which makes sense because I don't HAVE credit! All the money I've ever spent on my Visa is my own. Anyway, the person at the shop said I couldn't try again with the transfer until six months were up...well great...

But Mike gave me the phone anyway and my number was transferred to it (which reminds me I need to cancel the account tomorrow) and I just have to pay him the money every month over the net. But he's warned me that I better never get behind on the payments or he'll kick my ass.

I also had some luck at the Careers Expo, I had this fifteen minute interview with a Career Counsellor who gave me some tips I hadn't thought of to get into the publishing world, something I also need to do on Monday. Networking's where it's at apparently, so I need to find some. But I'm still hunting for other jobs since you know, this is getting ridiculous! Eventually I'm going to have to get a job at Coles, yuk!

Ok, I took a bite of one of the sausages, and they are the proper ones, tasty! But I still remain not very hungry at all...Oh well...I can put 'em in the fridge for tomorrow if I don't have them tonight. I do feel calmer now, although the Buscopan doesn't seem to have completely kicked in yet.

( OK, Meme Time! )

That's all I've got now...I think the anxiety has passed, but owww my poor stomach. Damn you highly addictive cheese!

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Duh!

OK, I was lying a bit when I finished up the last entry when I said I was feeling better, my stomach pain actually got worse! And I was worried enough to call up Mum and Dad. They had some friends over though (the parents and girl I babysat for, the ones I offered to be an au pair for. Incidentally, they decided that the wanted someone who spoke Spanish and I only know "PORQUE!" So Moose ain't goin' to the US) and Mum's lazy so they weren't about to come over and pick me up and I didn't want to go driving.

So, I was really freaking out wondering if I was going to throw up or something, when I noticed the pain was much lower...obviously the digestive system was messed up down there...but it's calmed down now and I've just figured out why. I haven't eaten properly today! I thought I might be allergic to Cheezels or something, but no it's all that cheese on an empty stomach basically! Jeepers, I've got fruit and bread here you'd think I'd have had some of that! I ended up having a madarin and two sausages for dinner a couple of hours ago, so I dare say I'm OK now.

Terrible laspe on my part I usually eat semi-decently! I guess getting up early after about five hours sleep has been very detrimental to my health and my brain, let this be a lesson to me not to do that again! Because the apartment still needs to be clean for Mum tomorrow! And I have to take the car down to the Mechanic again because something happened to it the other day and now the boot won't close. Luckily, you can still drive it because the hatch won't spring open, but it means anyone can get into the car and also that the "Door Open" warning light stays on all the damn time. So hopefully that can be fixed up.

I've been spending some time tonight fixing up the mobile, deleting all my bro's mobile numbers ('cause, what do I want with all those, there's nothing incriminating in there!) And I also took a picture of my favourite George III picture to use as my background wallpaper. LOL, fun!

I also got all my shows taped from Animation Domination (yay! We have our own one here in Aus now), so I probably should get to bed what with last night's lack of sleep and the fact I may have to go to work tomorrow, probably not, but if they say I can I probably should.

Anyway, the Meme!

Unconcious Mutterings

I say ... and you think ... ?

1. Italy :: Goooooaaaaal! (Those bastards, that goal they got against us was totally unfair!)

2. Honk :: Car horn.

3. Shades :: Sunnies.

4. Tool :: "You are such a tool..."

5. Modern :: It's Po-Mo...I don't actually know what that is you know.

6. Tension :: Anxiety, nervousness, eek!

7. Conservative :: My grandpa, God damn!

8. Weight :: Fat (Hmmm, that ain't good...)

9. Insurance :: Cars

10. Political :: People lying. :O(

Yawn, that's all I got, I'm watching a show here about people who have troule getting to sleep...that's not me...at least I hope not. I need my zzzzzs!

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